1. Have you given your first kiss away?
lol. no

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
why blog buddies?elyse, stephanie and nuratiqah

Where is the place that you want to go the most?
heaven

4. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
that my dream will come true

5. Who would i marry?
god

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
erm. duh?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
that i would lose something?

8.If you win $1 million, what would you do?
leave home

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
most prob

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
don't know. yet.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
seafood people and know-it-all

12. Do you like black or white?
they're the same

13. If you have faults, would you rather the ppl around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point out. gives me a chance to bitch back about them more.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my life

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
don't think so?

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
if i change i wouldn't be me, and i like to stay me.

18. What's bothering you lately?
everything

19. What is life about?
living it?

20. Why do people often mistaken the forbidden fruit(Adam&Eve) as the apple?
cause it's what snow white ate??

i tag:
elyse
i ting
sonia
victor
gillian

man u arsenal tonight. 22.55. 812. doubt i'll watch.
i really can stop disliking my mom.
on wed, she said she'd come like 2 something to pick me and the girl up. car pool.
she came and 3.30, and both of us didn't have lunch and we didn't bring money. plus it was raining i was freakin hungry. but i don't know why i got so nice i ask the girl whether she ate. she say she haven't so i muka tembok go ask aunty for one burger and say that i'll pay her later. imagine how embarassing it is to ask for something or buy something without having money or not enough money. no face okay? and when my mom came i wanted to scream at her but i didn't. i go pay the aunty then we just went off. and mom says 'aiya. next time i don't want go out with them also. see here see there' don't bullshit. that's what you say EVERYTIME. and i was downloading sounds just now and my mom claims i'm playing games "you know this year you're form 5 or not? so free go and play games?" wtf? you want me get some nerd disease? like some effed up people that just keep studying 24/7? fuck you.

i didn't know my house got this leave.
i don't know what's it called.aunt made agar-agar. she's good at it.she's the bitch. and i really love shih tzu..
wah.......

i'm getting so crazy now. i don't know what to do..
kc says wait. just wait i don't even know for what..
lets all just wait and see what comes and what happens.. trying not to hate everything. why can't everything just go one way???
lets just pray...... and go confessions..

DON'T GO BITCHING BOUT ME TO GET MY ATTENTION.
JUST TELL ME THAT YOU WANT MY ATTENTION,
CAUSE NO ONE WANTS THEM EXCEPT YOU.
SO JUST TELL ME. AND I'LL PUT YOUR FIRST ON MY DESPO LIST.
YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THEN..











GAYS.
JERKS.

FREAKS,
HATES.
LOVES.
FUCKS.

I HATE MY FAMILY.






enough said.

first thing to say. i've been voted for one of the free-spirit thingy. that 'the brain' in the class, sports, suceed in life or some stuff like that.
i want to thank all the people that's reading my blog, because through my blog you listen to what i don't say out loud. lol. i've been voted free-spirit? the one that's singing out loud and out of tune? yea. but i'm living the other. i act differently when at home and in school. i go all crazy in school but at home i just don't laugh like i do in school except with the tv.
everything's falling apart. mom's like having period everyday, my sis is like having period everyday, and they're making me have period everyday. just cause they don't talk, it just got to have something to do with me. i have to tell my sis what my mom says and not tell my mom what my sis says.
i'm so.. confused. lost. god where are you? is this the punishment i get for not praying?


the oscar award for best actor/ actresses in the world, is teenagers.
you see nothing on their faces, just girls that are crying in school cause they broke up with their boyfriend or some of the student's results sucked. you see no worries and you think that they just live their life that they don't have to pay the rent or any bills.
but, they shed tears nobody see. tears of hatred, anger, fear
it sucks to see everything fall apart right infront of you. why can't they just do things that affect themselves, not me. not us. not anything. why can't we just be immune to everything they do?
why must some be so immature and not think? teenagers don't tell what happens in their family to their friends. it's not that they don't want to. they want to. so badly, to express everything out. but we just choose not to. if we do, we'll just say it in a pissed off way and pretend to get over with.
why did eve ate the fruit?

why must people feel this way? why must people quarrel? why must people fall in love?
why????? why??????????
why must everything tumble down when you need them to be upright? why must the feeling come to you when you don't want to hate? why must i lie just to do little things? why must i lie? why do humans lie? why must we know something that we wish not to know until everything is done and settle, why can't we know it when the time's right? why must we know it when we're at our lowest point??

women don't need men. women need love. women need love from men.
i need love. i have love. i love him so much. i miss him too... and i know he misses me and loves me. gosh i'm in love....





god. where are you? i miss you. i love god.
can't everything just disappear for a split second? where there's just nothing to worry about. just a happy feeling. just a moment of happiness and memorable. no sounds of SCOLDING!!( which i am hearing now) no arguements or sadness or pissed off-ness.
just a moment of beauty. quiet. silence. still. that's all. is that too much to ask for???
where's paradise?

damn. arsenal draw liverpool 1-1.

sorry for not updating so long. lazy sial.
last week. saturday.. i went pyramid with atiqah for another HHH.
and this HHH was considered successfull.
we saw altogether three hot dudes. first was cute. i like his hair. and him. haha
and the second one.. that... atiqah was going crazy over him. not me. at gsc counter. she kept bitching bout the girl that was with the guy and i just when on with her. haha.
the third one... fuiyoh. atiqah claims his eyes can stop traffic. we followed him( and his girlfriend)
in jusco. we keep running everywhere. it's like those stalking moments. when he was just on the other side. we followed him till.. he went paying and we ciao. owh. and atiqah says he looked at her. that's how she caught his eyes. something like that.
and i bought another shades!! elyse says: shades freak.
anyway i have even number of them now. lol. i have six. ooo. and we bumped into a flamboyant dude. it was weird. she kept saying gay out loud. ahha when he was just beside. with his boyfriend i think

i'm lovin it.

nice eh? the one i've been lookin for...fuiyoh. all my baby fats not in this pic.




ooo. my nose not bad. lol

oh. like the last post i said my mom bought loads of stuff( go read)
now, she bought another freezer, toaster, wallpaper, water hose.. and that's all i think plus the last time punya..

lookie. my feet. haha. kinda bored.

i'm just. me.

thanks to everyone, you're now just history. the person i used to like is gone. not here. you're just another piece of shit i used to be with. although not denying you was a good shit. a great shit.
anyway whatsoever. you're gone. you may bitch about me. cause. I DON'T CARE YOU BLOODY USELESS JERK!!!!

I'M AWESOME.
AND YOU KNOW IT.