some sticks

you know i am. muahaha

haha. now you know what to tell your mom.

today my mom fetch her friends maid come our house to clean. so this weekend free. no housework.=)

after my sis went and drop the maid back. my mom was like "not very clean but at least better than my children do"
and she said it out loud. hello? you want to do you do it yourself la k? we do it we don't ask you for ANYTHING. thank you you never say we also don't care. and my mom don't appreciate. fuck.
at least we do it for the sake of doing it. we're not whining while we do it. damn!
you want you go hire maid la. tell your friends all what your daughter dunno how to help you. very lazy. no use. too skinny. wear what also not nice. those kind of fuckin' shit.


after dinner i was upstairs eating my wonka nerds. then i came down i told nita. eh. girl this one take two biji then can bluff people say i got sickness have to keep eating medicine.
ben: ya. then you take to school and eat. when teacher ask you you say you eating medicine. *call my mandarin name* ni zai chi she me??? (what are you eating)
say your asthma like coming back. so the doctor ask you to eat twice one hour
me: yaya. then i take out all the colours. the pink purple black orange green and yellow. then the teacher will say: eh francisca you sure you eating medicine? why so many colour one?
then i should reply. teacher ar. the doctor make so many colour one. cause they want make the little children eat ma. so bluff them is sweet and got so many colour the children sure like"

later we go share with our friends. then the teacher think walao. whole class gonna asthma tim.. haiyo..
next day she see the whole staff room teacher also eating. omg! the whole school kena asthma.
then see pn.leekimlai also eat. even the mr.mario the one cut grass that one. the big size guy also eating.
i know it's lame la. but it's like a moment of fun and we cannot stop laughing. i wonder still got people still so stupid or not. lol

anyway me and lyz were chatting and we were wondering when would parents come to realize that we wanna go out and party at night. we don't wanna stay home watch the tv count down on new year's eve. we don't care how dangerous it is cause actually dangerous was never really used in our world. all we know is fun. and it's not always you stay young lo. you have to have fun leh. =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
2008!
i don't want so fast old. TT
life is short. play naked.

hmm. this morn woke up like 9.30. going church at 11.30. so. bangun. mandi all.
parents and ben not home. they go 8.30 mass. following gin cause i lazy to get up so early. and she have to do wardening.
today shiok ma. so i wear make up. then this uncle say " what's with the goth look? new style ar?"
i just grin at him. i was like. wtf. it's not that i HATE goth. i don't hate goth. just that i don't think goth is my thing. and i don't like people go around saying that i look like one. goth people are cool but goth is just not me. well. yet. maybe one day goth will be me. who knows.
my point is i didn't wear makeup to look like a goth. i don't know why i'm making such a big deal bout this. like the second person ad say i so goth. and it's not many that go around that tell you you're a bitch. same thing. people don't really tell out LOUD that you're goth.
fuck weh.

newayz. after church i go to kc's house. go give him some stuff. sweets. in a jar. sounds weird eh?
and he buy me present! i told him not to ad. he always also like that one... ish..
then i gave him 10 bucks for the wonka nerds he bought me. at last he took after that " i don't want.."take la"" thing.
he bought me three boxes of wonka nerds. i ask him help me buy one. and also one octopus.
i love octopus leh. tako tao also octopus. this also octopus. summore what octopus?
got one friend also something like octopus. sotong.
octopus everything. octopus nice. now i want to sponsor octopus. lol. and trust me. after you see what kc give me you sure love octopus also..

or not.

cute right? looks so... kissable.
haha. i dunno that's the mouth or nose also
anyway it's MINE. so get your eyes off it.

the best!!! muahaha
wonka nerds!! two flavours in one box.
i know only can get in australia.
import one leh. and so good if eat this can become nerds for a while
can study and pass my spm... muahahahha

so.. my blog half way just now. dad came home. now curi online. =)

mr.gaya. haha
do maths too sien d.

superman!!
octopus, wonka nerds, mr.gaya and superman.
i now officially trademark it. it's mine. =D
and anything that starts with f. lol.

FUCKIN 28THS..

lets start with yesterday night. my dad scold me. uh.duh. with a dad like mine.
cause i painted my nails. and he smelled acetone. so wtf. he scold me. say i never do homework. and this time is the serious scold until bang table throw books kind of shit. i sound so pathetic talking about this while people are writing h0w they just celebrated their day with their friends. wth. anyway he say i like to pluck my face. wtf? pluck? what's wrong with his grammar weh. and he say i like to comb my hair and shit. erm. fyi. besides parting my hair. i don't comb my hair. unless i'm going out or something.
yea. my sis most prob will read this. but whatever.
so i'm like hyper sensitive shit. i kena marah bit sure cry. so i just cry la. wtf. then i tido. until like 10. slept at 11 so nearly 12 hours.
anyway. the man say i spoil his dinner and that i'm pissing him off that i want him to die. ok. fine. here's what i think.
i want him to die, so that he won't die because of ME pissing him off. he can just leave peacefully. i won't feel bad than. also he don't have to waste his time on me. and i'd rather he just didn't love me at all so he won't have to care about me and i'll be another burden less to him. right? make sense.
also he ask me what i want from him. haha. darn funny question. you think i can actually answer that? what i want? you want me to tell you i want that gorgeous long black jacket from sub that's 200 bucks. the nice white w580i from se which cost like 800++ also free manicure and pedicure. my own apartment and that you can just supply me cash. uh. and you think this is alot? i haven't even start my list. this is like just the few.
i look up to aj in this. i know it's not the same but wth. who cares.

ok. too chiong hei. newayz. today he make me do hw. all those books he throw everywhere. the one he ask me to burn that my sis bought and i'm suppose to do it during the hols.
oh. he also said. if i fail my first term i stop going to school wor. and today he said if i don't finish the books before school starts i don't have to go also. so instead of rotting at home. hmm. maybe faster ask my art teacher for job. she give like 15 bucks one hour. one day two hours. one week one day. quite good right? and if i don't go to school i can like help her out. no transport cost also. she stay few houses away only. exercise la. save money pun.
this my sis read want tell my dad tell lo. this one he sendiri cakap pun. but i trust she won't.

so today i just sit there. and in one fuckin day i finish 30 pages. it's the whole chapter of form 4 paper 1. tomorrow have to fuck on paper 2
so newayz. the plan i plan don't look like it's gonna work. i msg him yesterday night also. say he just reload. yea la. always also just reload.....
so i tak jadi pergi.
i miss school lar. can't belief i'm saying this. lol. getting so.. ughhh at home. i hope i can go to school leh. i love school... wtf. =)
i admire this girl leh. she's got the life i like. this sounds weird. but whatever. not gonna loh so.
ola~

HAPPY SWEET 16 TO HOEYEN!


NOTHING CAN REPLACE THOSE MEMORIES WE HAD.
NOTHING CAN TAKE OVER EVEN IF I'M SAD.
I'M WAY BETTER THAN WHAT YOU SEE.
JUST TOO BAD YOU CAN'T SEE THE REAL ME.
I WISH YOU COULD I WISH YOU CAN.
BUT IF YOU WANT ME IN YOUR LIFE
YOU'D FIND A WAY TO PUT ME THERE.

LOVE YOU SUCKA!

28ths? rest your breast.

today's the 28th. like i said before. i hate 28ths. 2 months ago we broke up. ok ok. whatever

my mom. ughh. she's pissing me off. ask me help her to do stuff. ok fine. i just do. and if you want me to do, i do it my way. it's not WRONG. just that's it's not YOUR way. so if i don't do it your way doesn't mean i'm wrong. you want me to do. i'll do it MY way. and as long as i don't do it the WRONG way i'm RIGHT.
and my dad. at lunch. he ask me to sit down. say i should study mascom. i was thinking something like that too. i have no idea why though. photography. draw. compose. do ads. all those stuff that mascom does. my dad was thinking since i'm so talkative i should take up that course. (seems like talking to much is a skill or talent or something.)
anyway he was talking about photography. it's funny.
dad:" there you know... when they take picture. the lightings all. how they control. then the light
will bring out the... bring out the...
me:"????( i wanted to say effect. since yea. lightings does bring out the effect of the picture you're gonna take. so i just didn't say anything waiting for my dad to talk.)
dad:" bring out the... breast.. you know. the breast. and sun set can look like sun rise....blablabla non stop.

hahahahahahha. he wanted to say bring out the REST. and he ended up saying breast. i don't think he realize it. cause rest. breast. i keep giggling. i try to tahan and think that he actually said BREAST but he didn't realize. and it's quite obvious. cause i heard the b. i'm not a perve k. i seriously heard it. gosh it was sooo darn funny. haha

this morning. besides knocking my head on the fridge, limping like what i've been these few days, extremely tired although i'm sleeping like dead.
cried for i don't know gawd why.
headache. no appetite.i hate school......... ughhhhhhhhhhhh
anyway arsenal draw with portsmouth. 0-0. wtf. how can arsenal not goal weh????????
now mu's leading. fuck fuck fuck fuck

oh. and suu gave me a new nick name. fanny.haha
she say's it means vagina. i thought it means butt.
anyway. thanks for the name suu. i'm fine with anything you guys call me as long as it starts with f. =)

life is short. play naked

wuuhooo

i found out something really juicy. i can't say about it. yet. sorry people.
and me and this girl. i can't say her name. cause if i do i'll blurt everything out and i don't want to.
i just hope everything goes well! yay i'm so happy!

and i wanna wear whatever little clothes i can now. cause i don't wanna look like a desperate grandma trying to wear a halter top when i'm 50.
since i'm 16. i can wear whatever i want. =)
yipee. lol. freak. wierd.
whatever. newayz. people. you guys aren't gonna stay teens forever. it's only another 3 years. and that's way way way wayyyy too short. enjoy life.
date and break. all you want. bitch about the girl sitting next to you. you won't have time to do that when you're working. trust me. you're busy making money and making family. either one.
so. bitch all you want. flirt all you want. drink all you want. shop all you want. freakout all you want. dance all you want. sing all you want. scream all you want. cry all you want.

bring your best friend and hit on hot dudes. ask them for numbers. who says you guys are gonna meet again anyway? it's just about the fun. weeeee

today's mom's birthday. happy 53 mom. yea. 53. and my dad is 60.

today nothing much. i called cristin and chated a while.
also today's dinner i have no appetite. everything that went in my mouth taste like nothing.
i don't even remember i ate.
today's boxing day too. haven't box anyone. yet.
can you imagine. mom+mom having pms+you having pms?
that's like super duper bad right? everyone's like on pms mood. suddenly kena. for no apparent reason.
he chat with me today on msn also. then i ask how he celebrate christmas and all. nothing much.
i just miss him. that's all.
it's feeling deeper..

anyway today i very emo. sad. all the negatives one. and my dad say i can't watch tv and all. omg.
i wanna die. faint. haiz.
dunno
school? i miss school.. (i'll regret saying this.) lol.

ola people!

miss me eh?

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeee
i went to church yesterday night. for midnight mass.with dad and two sis. we sang carols then got mass lo.
alot of smses. all merry christmas one. haha
mass ended at 1 something. then go back tido d.

i woke up at 8. cause tomorrow's mom's birthday. and my mom don't let my sis bake cake. cause we don't wanna buy. so yesterday before we go for mass we go giant to get all the ingredients. mom's an early bird. so she's going for the christmas day mass at 9. me and my sis woke up. then when my dad and mom's gone,we bake!!!

Pilsbury's Moist Supreme Cake Mix Devi's Food.

i copy people's one. but the chocolate chips i used chocolate bars to replace them. since they're too expensive. still chocolate anyway. haiya. i lazy to write out la you want just ask me how to bake it. sorry. it's easy to make.

left>right
chocolate topping(frosting) bater, cream cheese and peanut butter(middle filling) bater.

after the cake is baked. the cream cheese was hard to spread. so it looks horrible. haha
we slice half then put the middle filling then put the top one again.
it looks really ugly. but we cover everything up with the chocolate frosting and sift some extra icing sugar we had on top. and.. huala~



statue of our lady in cdm.


my dad going cuckoo christmas during breakfast.later i painted nita's nails. nice leh. haha

we went to my aunts house for lunch. we ate macaroni. nearly every christmas we eat macaroni. cause last time before my grandma passed away she always cook macaroni on christmas and new year.(normally whenever the whole family gather in my grandparents house) and she's a good cook! so now my aunt follow my grandma also. =)

my proud mom after been surprised! i say she's proud cause she keep going around telling everyone "first time bake one.. ok ar?" then i ask her" ma. you embarassed or proud? keep telling people first time one(and giggling)" like very paiseh like that. then she say she proud wor. haha. the cake is quite rich. with peanut butter all. nice~ we ate the apple pie also. the one my mom made. she brought to my aunts house.

partners in crime. =)
sis suggested to bake. dad that stall mom. gin brought me to drop the cake.


opening present time!!

my pretty cousin modelling. =)

me and my sis.

after lunch my sis my cousin bro and my cousin sis(the modelling one) go pyramid. watch movie. we watch national treasure. before that me and my cousin sis catch up and she told me bout her love life and all.. hahahahhaa. leng lui dia. she' single now~ =)
national treasure was nice leh. and same actors. i like it when the first movie and second movie are the same actors. so erm. the movie finish at 9pm then we go food court makan. my tako tao no more ad. TT

went back to pj to drop my cousin sis home. then my cousin bro drop me and my sis home. oh.. forgot to talk about presents!
i got one gossip girl!!!!! yea! i wanna collect all. but i now have two only. lol.
two pairs of socks..... cause i needed it. from soxworld. both from my sis.
i got one top one skirt earrings and bra stripe. from my aunt altogether.
another baby tee from bec friend.
that's all only leh... so little. lol. but nice ones though. not like wow la. but it's fine i'm happy with it.if someone give me one white w580i for christmas.. omg... i'll love the person till i go into my grave! (dream on francisca)

this three pics are taken on christmas morning one. (christmas eve night?)

mua~

me and my sis somedays ago.

everything's kinda long. anyway i'm gonna go off now. see you guys in 1 more week?
hope you guys enjoyed your christmas! love loadx!

oh. i forgot to say. christmas eve night. i msg him wish him merry christmas. he replied. said his cousin send him credit since he was out. again. always. he updated his friendster pic also. wth.
and when we chat he said that was freaky. hahaha. now only you knew?? geez. lambat sikit kan? whatever.

LOVE YOU BABE!

Merry Christmas people!

yesterday was exactly 3months ago we got together. =)

morning went to church in ckk. then rush to divine mercy for caroling practice. then rush back home. grab some bites and when to mid valley. me and gin went. i meet li jing there.
we watch alvin and the chipmunk. it's soooo nice!!! i wanna watch it again. and the bad guy's name is uncle ian. wtf. haha.
yesterday was the most time i heard him name being said. anyway it's a nice show. everyone go watch~ i missed the front part weh.. wanna watch again. alvin simon and theodore.( i think that's how it's spelled)

then we go jalan jalan. i belanja her movie. we buy tako tao. i belanja her also. haha
then i rush back. i change in the car........ go to taipan mc d's for art competition. i wasn't late. phew.. meet up with my friend carmen. then when start we just draw.. i finish just in time but all simply colour wan. makan and play games.
i didn't get prize. only consolation. but i don't care la. i finish drawing ad happy. =)
i got best sketching though. gold... wuu... haha
my dad is late. as usual so me and carmen went down to buy ice cream since everyone went home ad except for us and our teacher and family.

exhausted. go home. tido~ slept at hmm.. 12.30 like that. then woke up this morn around 9. got piano.
my teacher make me wait for her again. she say 11.30. she come 1. wtf.
after piano online. online tido. he got online for 4 mintues. wth. i dunno. then come blog.
now i gonna go get ready need to go mass and caroling in divine mercy.. wuuu
oh. and my mom was really angry today. sis bang someone. have to pay. and in the same month kena saman.... wtf. so what la.
i want go la.
ola~~ merry christmas!!! love loadx. xoxo.

and two months ago was exactly my birthday. haha.

dream~

i lupa cakap. i had a dream this morning. means on the 22nd morning.
i dreamt that we were all gathering in one place.
then he ask me go out with him.
so me and his bro went and get ready and all.
after he ask me someone called him. then he left for a while.
the whole dream was about me getting ready. wtf.
but he was there. on and off. =)

Arsenal vs tottenham 2-1

today the match. first half nothing much.
second half. adebayor goaled 48 minute. quite unexpected leh. like suddenly only.
then almunia!!! he blocked penalty. ooh yeah.. =)
then tott goaled leh. wtf.
then second is bendtner goaled. 75 minute i think.
not bad la.
got blurred out sikit. but didn't really tido. =)

and when i came down wanna use the comp.
my dad was like surfing some web with all the gurls pic.
not naked. all those sexy sexy one.
i was like. wtf..... lol. guys. tsk tsk.

hari ini. tak jadi.
everyone pergi tengok movie.
ibu bapa keluar nanti.
mau buat shopping grocery.
so saya alone at night nanti.
saya pun belum mandi.
saya mau tengok tv.
mengapa tak mau tengok movie?
cause later got sepak kaki.
i mau see arsenal victory.

hari ini. dia pun pergi.
mamak there tengok tv.
why tak mau come my house see?
cause we sudah tak jadi.
saya don't want dia susah hati.
oleh itu ask him pergi.
leng lui in college pergi cari.
i tak mau dia susah hati.
but sendiri sakit hati.
tomorrow should've been 3 month anniversary.
akan tetapi.
he won't remember you see.
but saya wish dia sms me.
akan cakap hari itu dia happy.
until now still onto me.
tapi 1 month lepas patah hati.

now saya harap too much d.
so i just want to pergi mati.
for me i think only elyse kymberly
even stephanie and cristin tee.
maybe also sa por gi.
will understand me.
i tak tau what happen to me?
but we semua know it's about mr.m.i.p.
i know i harus let dia pergi.
tapi you must know it's not that easy.
it never was as easy as you see.
it's more complicated then whatever might be.

hari ini. dia avoid me.
kita kan semua also know d.
i don't care if he hates me.
i know that's a lie but let it be.
don't tell me it's not worth it.
cause now nothing can change it.
if you were me can you do it?
just let it be and just see.
we don't know the future you see.
so now. just let it be.

i'm sorry i don't know why i benci you kaylie
but i'm not now cause it's not easy.
so i just want to say i'm sorry.
i don't want to say forgive me.
i didn't do anything bitchy.
now i'll just let it be.
and watch my sepak kaki.
and see arsenal's victory.
before that now pergi mandi.

now i only wanna say. mr. m.i.p.
i thank you for everything you gave me.
and i love you for once loving me.
wish you earlier now maybe?
happy once upon a time 3rd month anniversary.

Arsenal vs tottenham

tonight! 8.40pm. channel 812. arsenal vs tottenham
must watch!

today i woke up late for art class. i woke up at 8.45 when my class starts at 9.
after class i came home. ate tang yuan. haha. the chinese winter thingy. lepas tu.
go for caroling practice in divine mercy church. gonna sing for christmas eve. =)
finish at 4. came home dia online. haha
and talking bout dia. yesterday he pun online. chat dgn saya wor.
say maaf no credit. i got say kan? dah lupa. lol. why suddenly turn to some malay freak.
newayz yesterday i didn't have piano class. i waited for my teacher since 10.45 for 1 hour then she tell me she's not coming cause her son is sick. ughh..
so. nothing much these two days. except for tonights match.
and tomorrow i got art competition. i didn't practice what to draw also. the title is visit malaysia. i just go main. in taipan mcd's.

and oh. erm. haha. tomorrow is three months ago when we got together. ^^
so. like that la.
and also..
CONGRATS TO kim and daniel!
church friends. together for 3 years on the december 15th. lewat sikit. sorry ar. =)

tomorrow tomorrow. i love you tomorrow. we'll always a day away~~~
(is this how the thing goes? some song.. haha. not sure)

WATCH THE MATCH!!!!!! arsenal!! yeah!!

oh. also. sangat obvious dia mau avoid saya. haha. sangat sangat obvious. i dunno sad or happy also. sad. but i can't stop laughing. lol.
sad. lol. sad.lol.sad.lol.sad.lol.sad.lol.

christmas is here.
means year end is here.
means form 5 is here.
means spm is here.
means college is here and thinking what course to take is gonna freak me out.
means everything will change.
means i have to go get to know new friends again.
it's not that i don't wanna know new friends.
but it's like the knowing-over the person. that process is the tiring one.
my friends now accept that i'm a freak emo retard. and i'm glad.
when you go to coll you'll hear people bitching about what you wear.
that you're such a................. all those things
and it's like whatever you say you might offend the person although it's nothing to you
cause your friend is like a totally different person.
oh my god. help!!!!

anyway i'm just gonna update my blog.
i'll try not to call or talk or msg or chat with anyone.
not that i don't want to.
i just need to kill myself awhile.
since. something really really sucky happened today.
it's the on offline thing. you won't understand newayz.
so gonna see everyone in two weeks time. or less.
now. go party! ola~

today my mom made pies.

chicken pie and apple pie. =)

apple pie. looks good eh? with ice cream and chocolate syrup.chicken pie! =D

i need a shoulder. i need a friend. i need a drink.
i need time. to clear my mind.
about whatever i'm thinking now.
any offers for letting me yell at and cry on?
i'll give you free stay at my house.=)

[HE'S THE REASON FOR MY TEAR DROPS
YET HE DON'T KNOW WHY.
HE LOOKS AT ME.
I FAKE A SMILE SO HE WON'T SEE]

tear drops on my guitar-taylor swift.

PARTY THE REST OF THE WEEK!

today got party!!!! and the host didn't invite us! ughh.. it was like. only invite few of the other people.
if you wanna have a party. either invite everyone or don't have a party at all.
cause you suck for only inviting SOME of the people.and it's not like we don't know each other.
damn.
i so wanna go. and malvin said he could take me since he's going. BUT. with a bapa like mine. geez. how can you? i sooo wanna go. and now i'm just one hour away to be early before the party starts.
i wanna drink drink drink
i wanna party party party
it's the last week people!!!
next year you'll be 24/7 infront of your books!
not only christmas is the time to celebrate!
everyday should be party day!
so get your ass out!! now!!!!!!!

ONE OF THE HARDEST THING
YOU'LL EVER HAVE TO DO
IS STOP LOVING SOMEONE.
NOT BECAUSE THEY HAVE
STOPPED LOVING YOU
BUT THEY'LL FIND MORE
HAPPINESS ON THEIR OWN.
THIS IS WHAT WE CALL SACRIFICE.

I KNOW IT SUCKS. BUT THAT'S THE TRUTH
AND YOU GOTTA FACE IT NO MATTER WHAT.
NOTHING BEATS THE SMILE ON THE FACE
OF YOUR LOVED ONES.

i couldn't sleep. slept like 3.
woke up at 8 went for caroling practice in divine mercy.
going to church on christmas eve at cdm and christmas mass in ckk morning at 9.=)darn. haven't go for confession. lol.

owh. and the shit thing about today is i was msging stephanie. telling her bout what happen yesterday. and i accidentally send to him. the msg was something like" no i msg him first. then we online chat........." about what happen yesterday la. and i was like. sorry wrong msg.
later saw him online. i ask him to not read those msg. and he say he didn't. so thank god.although i don't really belief that he didn't. i ask him to just delete everything i send.
he say ok. so that's that. i just hope he never read those shit msgs. i'm soooooo effed up.
i just wanna die die die die. so he can just think i'm desperate!! yipee.
i'm siao today i dont even know why i wrote this. but i just felt like writing lo.

alphas names?

Find your alphabets people!

A: hot
B: loves people and sex
C: good kisser
D: can kick your butt
E: has gorgeous eyes
F: loves people wild and crazy adore you
G: very outgoing
H: cute
I: loves to laugh and smile
J: is really sweet
K: crazy
L: very good kisser
M: Makes dating fun
N: easy to fall in love with
O: has one of the best personalities ever
P: popular with all types of people
Q: a hypocrite
R: is good in bed
S: makes people laugh
T: smile to die for
U: is very sexual
V: not judgmental
W: very broad minded
X: never let people tell you what to do
Y: is loved by everyone
Z: can be funny and dumb at times

F: loves people wild and crazy adore you( i don't quite understand this)
R: is good in bed
A: hot(i know i'm hot k?) hahahaha
N: easy to fall in love with(haha. you tell me)
C: good kisser( i dunno. never kissed anyone)
I: loves to laugh and smile(yup. too much)
S: makes people laugh(yea i guess)
C: good kisser( I just said i dunno)
A: hot

L: very good kisser(3rd time...............)
I: loves to laugh and smile
M: Makes dating fun(?)

fine.. i'm just do my full name man.

Y: is loved by everyone
U: is very sexual(wtf)
I: loves to laugh and smile
C: good kisser(4th time. jeez)

M: Makes dating fun
A: hot
E: has gorgeous eyes(haha. i don't think so.)

try yours weh. it's fun haha

emo-ness.

hmm. today is the last day of caroling.
he said he'd come. but he didn't. when we go to his house that time he also not there.
i just act nothing lo.saw his bro though.
then go last house.
when we gonna sing finish ad only he come.
nita called. cause she couldn't go. so i just chat with her on the phone since there's no one there to talk to. and the little babysitting boy is in cheng mai.
later he came out and i was still on the phone with ben. he just snap infront of my face. i said hi then continue talking.
then my dad make announcement say thank you thank you all he was sitting infront. means i can see him face to face lo.
lepas tu they all go mamak. he and his cuz. few other of his cousins were there too.
i lepak with gin malcolm alyssa and carmen.
haha damn siao weh.
i was like half high. i had two shandys. whisky and vodka i think. don't remember
erm. we were talking bout balls and other stuffs. haha. moments of weird-ness.
malcolm keeps calling me freak. i guess he's jealous cause he himself is a freak and everyone calls me a freak since he's the only guy among us.
ok. that was way lame.
newayz went home like erm 1 something?
i waited a while. he didn't msg me. so i msg him la.
i online. then he pun online. then gonna be 2 in the morn. my dad ask me and gin to go sleep then he pull the line. wtf. i was chatting with him online.
ughhh. i msg him again. he say he no credit. so i was lookin for kc to help me.. but it was over d newayz.
i called him. we chat a while. he say he taking hospitality. and he watch movie with his cuz yesterday in his house. shit man. then he say that day he go his college. and he see the people there all sakai one. lolx. i was like. your course only sakai but not the whole coll right?
i just hope he faster cari one girl. so i can just kill myself.
he say he want tido. ask me go tido also. but i say i can't. so he ask me to go TRY.
then i say i will lo. then just off and nothing.

fark up day

semalam. hanya ingat. i afternoon tido a while. cause at night got carolling. my farkin dad farkin whack me to call me up. say i sleep whole day. no need study all.
helo? you were sleeping just now also k. and you say i wake up at 10? i woke up at 8 la
i know you're not happy cause you have to wake up like 6 or 5 something to go to work. but whacking me does not gain you back your sleep!
and in 365 days. minus saturdays and sundays and public holidays and sick days,
i've never one day NOT go to school. and you say i sleep whole day? in 200++ days only 2 months i get to sleep till 10. not even 2 months!
geez dad. i wish you had a daughter that was suckier than me. maybe then you'll know i'm not so sucky at all. anyway. i am who i am. you can't change me. you just gotta live with it.
OR
you can give me cash everyday as in not 10 bucks a day. maybe 200 bucks a day. you buy me an apartment, pay my bills. then i'm ok. i can stay there since you hate me so much.
i can go shopping with my 200 per day. i can buy phone laptop shoes shades. tons of shades. go for spa. pedicure. manicure. i can hire a driver. someone to brush my hair everyday. i can buy all the thongs i want. all the tops i want. and i don't have to ask elyse to borrow me her dad's cc. i can just spend all i want. i can even drink everyday. i can go clubbing everyday. i'll bring lyz. ting. suu. yi. ping. steph. jing. i'll bring who i want. i'll go wherever i want. i'll do what i want. you can just support me with cash. love? i think my friends love me. even if they don't. so what. i love them. they know i love them. my friends are like. retard angels on earth. i can buy myself dogs. i can have bitches and cameras and do sleepover anytime i want. food wise? mom will give me. since she's not... someone like you.
although at times i do dislike her nagging and all.
p.s. you nag more than her.


at night he didn't come for carolling. so i sms him kan. ask him why never come.
he say he's watching movie and that he'll come today.
so i just say oh ok.
i guess his watching movie with his gurl
woohoooo. i'm so happy!!!
cause when this hurts me. it kills how i feel for him. somehow i hope it does.

hari ini pagi go buat facial aje. nothing more.
i wanna go watch gameplan and alvin and the chipmunks.
who wanna go???

steph. if you read this. erm. your cbox got prob. and please ask your dad.
please come. sleepover..? can call jing if you want.
then we can watch football also. =)

i watch the match arsenal vs chelsea again. the replay one. since i was dozing off the first half.
now i know why when i see the score was 0-0 and when second half start it was 1-0.
because gallas scored in the added 3 mins of first half........
=.='
anyway. yesterday was and ok day. my dad took me to go register for the tuition behind my house. ughh.. hate tuitions. he ask questions that cannot be answered by them. again.i kesian them.
then at night he online kan. he just told me he got no credie than chao ad.
he also viewed my friendster profile. hahahhahhaha. siao weh.
i so happy i drop him a comment. =)
smile smile smile.

THE ONLY WAY TO STOP
IS TO MAKE YOURSELF DISAPPOINTED.
HOPE HIGHER.
CAUSE WHEN IT DOESN'T HAPPEN,
EVENTUALLY YOU'LL STOP.
BUT THEN AGAIN.
IT'S OURSELVES THAT DOESN'T WANT TO STOP.

me and lyz convo. =)

me and lyz were chatting. and with her permission i'm posting the convo. lol
yes it is kinda long.fine. very long. but we were bitching bout someone. and it might be you. so read it.

~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
why girls get what guys say but guys don't get what girls say?
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
is it because we were taken from their rib so we understand them?
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
probably
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
and it always depends on us to solve everything and us to blame cause we adam to eat the fruit
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
THAT'S WHY
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
*gave
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
ugh
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
geez
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
sigh
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
why must the story go like that :S
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
yeah
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
see now women are blamed forever
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
it's like "she ask me to eat the fruit"
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
gosh
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
tht's why
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
put the blame
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
sheesh
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
and who was the one that accompanied adam? we were made to teman him. and this is how they treat us
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
stupid eve
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
why she eat the fruit?
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ sent 12/17/2007 10:10 PM:
THATS WHY
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ sent 12/17/2007 10:10 PM:
i wont name my child tht
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
yeah
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
me too
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ sent 12/17/2007 10:10 PM:
eve.. eve..
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
not god also
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
then it's like
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
if if if
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
then your daughter will if forever
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
lol i duno lar
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
i just damn mm song even
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
*eve
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
hahaha shit i dun even kno her
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
haha yea
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
hahahahhaa
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
LOL
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
if not we will be in paradise weh
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
that's why
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
eventhough we'll all be dumb and naked
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
at least we'll be hpapy
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
*happy
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
yea
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
but
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
if she didn't eat the fruit. we'll never know each other and bitching bout her and having retard friends
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
and laughters and no love
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
we just sit there naked
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
nothing to do bside plucking fruits
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
that's why
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
lol
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
n we dunid go skul
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
this world is sooooooooooooo
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
yea
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
no exam
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
got clear air
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
n we dunid to worry anything about love life
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
we don't have to worry about PIMPLES
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
cuz i'm sure God will let us kno who's our other half anyway
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
yes
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
no struess
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
THAT'S WHY! PIMPLES!
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
yaya
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
eh wait
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
you see ar
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
if adam and eve make love right
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
their first child is son then how is he going to have children till so many people in the world?
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
i bet eve had sex with her own son
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
and if it was daughter
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
i bet adam have sex with his own daughter
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
i know it's not right. lol. but it's kinda logic right
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
no lar
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
i dun think they have sex with their own son n daughter lar
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
lol
*unicef HoneyBabyy. {WhiteChristmas} ~ says:
but probably their son n daughter had sex with their bros n sis
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
owh yeah
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
maybe
~DeAd FrAnxxY~ says:
so i bet adam and eve were making love non stop to have so many lims teohs yaps sins tans

ARSENAL WON!!!

arsenal won!!!!!!
1-0. gallas scored. sorry chelsea's.
anyway the first half the middle part i was like dozing off ad. so i just slept all the way. woke up before second half. then i saw the score was 0-0. i was like. wtf.
later second half d it was like 1-0. lol. i guess i was blurring out.
i msg him say congrats on arsenal winning. before that i msg him twice but he didn't reply.
then later he say he out of credit and just reloaded. i guess SOMEONE helped him. fark.
then erm. i ask him whether he remember what day was 16th or not. he didn't reply.
emo-ness.

NO.. IT'S NOT RIGHT YA. YOU DUN USE TO BE LIKE THIS.
P.S. WHAT DO YOU KNOW?

1-0. man u vs. liverpool

game just finish
hahahahaha.... erm.. man u won... 1-0.
sorry liverpools.

next is arsenal vs. chelsea tau... must watch ar

GAME ON!

arsenal vs chelsea
man u vs liverpool.
i support arsenal la. duh. and man u. muahahhahah
watch the match you ding dongs!

loves! ola
watch it

lala-ness vs. retard-ness

go to church. talk banyak in post con.
then when to pyramid to pick up my sis. (they repainting the lion head weh.)
she bought me my tako tao! jing teach me to eat one. it's nice!!! haha
then balik. mop floor. cause yesterday no water. ^^
watch the holiday. watch cartoons. watch.. anything that's showing.
and today's the 16. 3 months ago was when we went out. it was a really nice day. hey! i didn't notice. it was sunday that time also. well. if only today can happen like 3 months ago.. sigh..
(dream on francisca!)
i msg him but apparently he's not replying.
and i cam whored!
i got so bored that i remember i ting said bout the lala posing thing. so i tried. it's soooo not me.
but maybe i pass the lala posing. but i think i aced my retard pics. give comments if you want. i don't care how mean they are. it's just the fun that's important!

this' the normal one first. its the best among the ugliest so bear with it.
lala poses up! i seriously wonder how they do those thing and shit.
they're good man.
seems like lala ness has it's talents? lol

retard ness? yep. think you can do better? lol
i seriously look like a retard. maybe i'm suppose to go to like tr or something.
but maybe huyi does it better. she's a natural. hahahha =)

fark! i lost weight!

morning woke up. i was nearly awake the whole night. i only slept like 2 hours.
i didn't eat breakfast. went for carolling practice in divine mercy. then i came home. didn't eat lunch. i went out with ben mom and dad to pyramid since today no water.
we went and bought nothing. since mom and since we like having pms and everyone's so on a pissed off mood. mng got sales! but cause mom's mood wasn't good. we didn't buy ANYTHING. ughhh
we went to the nichii in pyramid too since today open day. we got door gift. i can't find the shorts i wanted to badly.
later we went to sungai besi's fashion city since the one there is bigger and has more clothes.
the freakin size we ALL l and xl. wtf. not even m.
so didn't buy anything la. all like working clothes only. he got msg me also.
say sorry cause he was tido-ing like a baby he didn't reply me. then i just told him i didn't sleep and no appetite to eat. and he was like.. why are you doing this to yourself?
i'm happy he's a wincy concern. but hello? i'm not doing this to myself. it's how my body feel. i'm not like on diet or something. and speaking of that. i fuckin lost two kg. you know how hard it is for me to gain that freakin 2 kg??? i'm sorry if this offend anyone of you. i don't mean to say you're fat or make you feel bad. it's just that... ughhhh.. i think it's the blardy weighing scale problem. yes. it is. i'm sure.
back to it. he say i don't use to be like that and he thinks it's because of him.
then just suddenly he didn't reply so that's it la.

yea. yea. yea

today morn. got piano class. teacher came half an hour late. and was talking bout jay chou again. wtf.
at night. go carolling again. bring the little boy zhi hong again. babysit him again. sing again.
then when we were going to the 3rd house.... he came. =D he was there with his bro and cuz. we sang two songs in that house then they chao ad. i was like.. wth.. you come d i so darn happy. sing two songs only then you chao ad. omg!!! i didn't even see him see him. obviously i was pretending he wasn't there.
later the next house i had lime vodka!! it's so farkin nice! nice nice nice nice nice nice. then go last house d. altogether have to go six houses. so the last one lo. sing sing sing tear the house down.
then the aunty say 12 we sing birthday song! cause it's his dad's 47th birthday. still young eh?
then at 12 sing lo. i was like damn dead. no mood eat also. then he and his cuz came back. haha. he straight went to the dining table with his other cuz. so all i did was watch the kids play hand football and watch zhi hong.

when i was kaping him he saw me la. then i was like darn scared. then nothing lo. i just duduk sana. later he came and talk to me. hahahhahah. yea. i'm siao now. and high while typing this.
we chat. then he say he's going to taylor's college and gonna get his p license soon. also he's so red. he drank. then we just chat. like what NORMAL people do.

happy to see him great. without me.. *emo-ing. all the way*
i just went home. msg him. i say it was great to see him good. then we talk until he said something he don't wanna have gf all. and he says i'm talkative. he thinks he's nice. *piff piff*
it was aight. i didn't sleep though. it was like 1.30 i went home. then we sms till 3 something. later he didn't reply. he replied at 5 nearly 6. he was tido-ing ad. i was msging stephanie also. since she's not sleeping and i can't sleep.

caralling anyone?

the only thing i remember is that i went carolling.it was fun!! we sang and sing and sang. i wore all black since what the "shubab gang" has to wear. we went 6 houses. he said he would come. but apparently he didn't i went home like 12.45 after i teman my dad drop this this little boy home that came carolling with us.( i had to babysit him. go toilet with him. bring water for him. geez. no time for myself. but it was fun since there's no one to talk to)

so like 1 o clock reach home. i cam whore. with all my emo ness. oh and a couple in my bec "renew their vows" since on the 11th was their silver anniversary. blah blah. i forgot what i wanted to say. i ting's emo ness has now come down to me. the lims. =)

it's nice wine i'm drinking. =)
that's the innocent boy that i have to babysit and play o2jam on my sis' comp.
yep. emo shot.i like this better than the one above. =)

that's all i can remember la. stick with it. stml.ola