it just makes me smile to see you fine and well. and that you're happy.
even if you do things that you won't know hurt me, but it's ok. i guess.
i just love ya.

bitch slap girl ain't so bitch slapp anymore. i just hope she don't go gaga and do something that she'll make me hate her more. muahahahhahahaha. so long didn't hate someone. thank you for letting me hate you for a while. it'll be gone soon. no worries. that is if you don't do something i won't want you to. bitch. blahhhh

whoever read this,and you think i'm bitchier to bitch about someone. no worries bitch. i didn't say i wasn't a bitch. just that you haven't said i was one yet, bitch. you think i'm a bitch, say la. no ones stopping you bitch.

FIRST YOU SAY YOU WON'T, THEN YOU SAY YOU WILL.
CLICK FIVE-JENNY

slap slap!

oh damn. cough came before sore throat and my cold is.... unrescueable. lol
my morning was fine, but my dad made it bad with a morning lecture about me and my studies talking till he only ate wan tan when he was young. (my dad always talks from one thing to another) so imagine this went on continuosly for 1 hour. so.. that's not good..

wuuuu.. yesterday i msg him wish him luck since today was his last paper. suprisingly he replied. then i say sorry for whatever i said and he say just forget bout it. i'm just glad he didn't act like i was some stranger shit.

anyway i wanna slap this girl. just cause she make me wanna slap her. i know i cakap only. but i just feel like slapping k? amen.

did nothing today.. urghhhh slap her slap her. slap slap slap!!! lalala~ oh.shit. sorry. its an f thing to react like that.

bored. bored. bored.

my piano teacher called and said she'd be late. she came at 9.15pm like that.. then after class, she suddenly ask me.. "eh.. you know the secret ar what..." then i like.. "huh" *thinking izzit that jay chou show* she said "the jay chou act one" i was like.. wtf.. when you know jay chou acted in a show. lol. cause my teacher always teach all those classical songs, beethoven, chopin, hadyn and stuff.. then she say what jay chou write the song use chord 1 seven, 1 nine, 1 thirteen shit..
i was like.. wahhhh.. first time jay chou was something my teacher would talk about... i tell you i learn from her got 5-6 years liao. and how long ago jay chou was popular. this is the first time in century she even said his name.. *pengsan*

newayz. back to the emo-ness, i wish he msg me. but... never hope for the better or the best. cause if you do, you'll only get disappointed in the end if it never happens. so better not hope. so much.

I STILL LOVE YOU. YOU DON'T LOVE ME RIGHT? SO CAN YOU MAKE ME DE-LOVE YOU?

sick-ening.

this morn i woke up, and my cold is getting worse. sore throat feels like its coming and i'm gonna be soooooo darn sick.

anyway, today's kc birthday. lol. happy birthday kc! you're 20 today! you're getting old.. hahaha! enjoy your birthday in DUBAI. wtf. dubai weh.

so...my mom thought me how to make radish cake today. ^^
you just gotta cook the ingredients then add flour then finish. i didn't know it was that easy. used to wonder why my mother take the trouble to do it when we've got other food to eat.

it looks plain and all but it tastes quite ok. it's edible. =)

later i follow my mom out. go see my grandad and stuff. boring day.my sis went for interview for her part time job. my mom pick her up from the ktm station then we went home. called steph and chatted a while. we were both bored to death. after that i just slept the whole day till like 8 at night.

yesterday i was chatting with my church friends, kimberly and charles. and kim showed me the pic of this japanese guy that she will be hosting on i don't know when. he's cute! and he don't look like a jap at all. he's name is kentaro, he's 17 and is single and available. lol. anyone interested? msg me. haha. but it's my taste la. if i show you you think he's ugly then not my business.

YOU DON'T KNOW ME, YOU DON'T EVEN CARE.
BOSTON-AUGUSTANA.

today's 28th. i hate 28th's.

28 is not a good date for me..... sigh...............
and i got cold. bad bad cold.. ughh.. i'm dead.

hmmm.. newayz.. around 11. my dad took me go check out some tuition centre for me to join next year. i hate tuition's. urghhh. came back d then me and my sis make soya bean! lol. here's it. my dad got the machine free for some credit card points or some shit.

this is it.
then we put the beans.
then it blends.
tada!! lolx. can see the thing flowing out?

just add sugar then gao tim liao. can drink d.. so.. next time come my house can drink soya bean. haha

my sis and me bake cookies also. the dough was cacat. cause first it looked dry then we added milk. but the recipe didn't say to add. we just add and the dough was kinda slimy.
here's it after we line the thing on the tray.

yes yes i know. it looks horrible and you think you can do better than me. i'm not a baker so i think it looks fine. those are chocolate sprinkles anyway. =)

in it goes to the oven. haha.

omg. the cookie so darn big. me and my sis knew it would be big. but not this big.

you see up there we line the thing that time so small then turn out so big. so..next time come my house got cacat cookie to eat and soya bean to drink. lolx. XD

it's soooo out of shape.and is really really big. but it tastes fine though.kinda sweet. ^^

see!! so proud of myself. =) lol.

anyway,we did second attempt and this time we made it really really small.

second attempt!
this is what you do when you don't have chocolate chips. or not.

it wasn't me. it was the chocolate!

dang! the second time the bater was too small. and some ended up bakar. but the bakar one is the nicer ones. lol.....

the burned ones. not so proud anymore.

lol. can see the difference between the both now?

when we finish 3 o clock d. so fast. lala~
hmm.. today didn't eat anything besides few cookies. didn't have breakfast, didn't have lunch, dinner didn't eat much. so basically i was functioning with water today. and i'm not on diet or anything. not like some people. (lyz. if you read this i bet you know who. err.. mrs. you wei. lol)

I THINK WE JUST BE FRENS FOR NOW YA (THAT'S THE WORST TO HEAR)

this morning woke up, had breakfast and stuff. then i watch underdog with my sis while having lunch.oh. and i had petai, long beans, brinjal and lady fingers and rice for lunch. lolx. people don't like petai. they say got smell. but to me it's fine lar. i don't smell any smelly what also. hmm...dunno.underdog to me is those kind of just see-for-fun show. it's ok lar.
then watch tv only lu. and slept for like 2 to 3 hours.

haha. i fry one leh. damn nice. lol

then.. dinner.. my mom made soup. i love soup. haha. and i ate sharks meat. it's nice too! just like fish. hmm.. nothing much today.

HARDER,BETTER,FASTER,STRONGER.
KANYE WEST.

sorry.

why everytime i say or do something, it's always wrong. even if i think it's right, people think it's wrong. when i think it's wrong, they'll also think it's wrong. can i ever do anything right? damn.
yesterday i msg him just say congrats cause i heard he was with that girl. he replied me don't make stories and stuff.. i just heard yea. and he sound so pissed say that i should go confirm whether they're together or not then only congrats him. i said i just heard. now i feel damn bad that i wish people congrats, people also get pissed. then forget to wish, say i no chen yi to remember. anyway i apologize a thousand times and i'm really really sorry. i don't mean to make you angry. i just wanna wish you congrats. that's all.

WHAT DAY IS IT? AND IN WHAT MONTH? THIS CLOCK NEVER SEEM SO... DEAD.

maybe blogs are not that good if you're gonna write... not good stuff.. as in stuff that you don't know will hurt others or make others think too much.
i read this girls blog. and she chat with him till like 6 in the morn.
and the way she say bout him like she knew him forever. and he also asked her to go support him for something. and on the 23rd. ting, if you read this i bet you know 23rd's? and don't worry i really remember your birthday yea. =)
gosh.. if only... if.. why is there always if??? god! why you create men who made this word if?

IF.

Hot Stuff!

yesterday my sis ask me whether wanna go mv or not. but i wasn't really in the mood and i don't think anyone will be free. so.. this morn, aitqah msg me. she said that she was in school. so i ask her wanna go mv or not. she agreed. haha.
me and my sis went to the ktm station. then meet up with her friend. dominic. we just took ktm lo.. that guy talk so sarcastic. and he didn't get anything we said. he's weird. when we reach mid valley, my sis and her friend go their own way. i went to world of cartoons waiting for atiqah. i saw really nice stuff in world of cartoons. i wanted to buy this mickey and minnie set last time. but well.. since it's over.. i just didn't see the point of buying it anymore.

atiqah came with yee thuan, then we went to check out the shows on today. we decided to watch beowulf. there's this guy at the ticket counter number 6. lol. he is kinda cute. but we got the 5th one instead of the 6th. so erm.. me and atiqah bought the tickets since yee thuan didn't want to watch. then later we went to food junction to have lunch. it was like 12 something d. atiqah and me had chicken rice and yee thuan had popiah. lol. then we had desserts too..saw you wei there. and nur keeps checking out this black and red stripes mat salleh guy. haha. he's not very cute. but she thinks he is.. so....
three of us went to room. yee thuan go check out this other guy.. lol. that she spied before. then we just keep bugging her to go in. atiqah saw this black shirt dude and thought he was cute. but that time we were checking out yee thuan's guy. so nur missed hers. haha

after yee thuan went back, me and atiqah hit the cinema. the mirror in the toilet in the cinema have all the enchanted (the movie) stickers on it. so it's like those mirror mirror on the wall kind of shit. beowulf was ok lar. some parts quite frightening though. that grendel's ear so geli... yer...
i'm not gonna tell how the show was. just go watch it yourself. aj looks so animated there. some parts didn't really look like her.

the show finish ad then me and atiqah headed to f.o.s. they don't have the tank i want. then nur suggested we tried on dresses. lol. we keep walking around and we saw nice ones but we just didn't try them. then we went to sub. atiqah tried this really nice jacket. it was 200 bucks. damn. if only i can spend those kind of money on clothes. and i tried this shorts. the material was so nice. and it was 150.i tried the jacket and now i love the jacket sooooo much. it's soooo nice!!!!! obviously we didn't buy it lar. we don't have that kind of cash. then my sis called... she saw gorgeous! gorgeous is this guy that i met in a&w last thursday when i went to pyramid with my sis and cousin. he had english eyes, nice smile, not too tall or too short, nice abs and he's fabulous! i can't believe he was there also!!! i got so high i made atiqah go find him with me.kesian her. lol.

we went round and round. sad enough we didn't find him. then she said she had to go home. so we went bread talk and bought some buns and then i realize i lost my bottle. shit happens. after she went, i go look for my bottle. i went sub, tak de. then i was walking to f.o.s. and muahahaha..i saw that guy. he was so darn good looking. he was buying phone with his father. since i was rushing i just went to f.o.s. look for my not-there bottle then went to the ktm station with my sis and her friend.

at ktm station, i saw atiqah's black shirt dude opposite the platform i was waiting. i msg her and as usual she said " dang woman". haha. dominic went off at kl sentral. then my sis spill the beans. she said he was a stingy guy. and a very stingy one too. he kinda make my sis pay for everything. counted she spend around 30 bucks on him. including ktm ticket, lunch and movie. and when she ask what he wanna eat, he went like " oh.. secret recipe is just there." and my sis said" is there anything ELSE you wanna eat?" he replied "anything la, but secret recipe is just there." maybe people only say that when they are going to make someone else pay. it's not that she's dumb, sometimes you go out with your old friend you also will give face abit belanja them ma. but he was like " i just now treat you popcorn" and is hinting she should treat him back summore. none of my business newayz. he's just not a gentlemen.

chocolate indulgence! mm.. the guy made my sis pay for this. ish.

my mum pick us up from ktm station then we went home. so sad hot stuff didn't look at me. lol. well.. you don't see cute guys everyday so when you see one you should really SEE him. cause there's a higher chances you won't see them the next time. but suprisingly i saw this guy twice.. muahaha.. he's just good looking anyway.

reach home at 7. so tired today and wish that i could see him again. i miss him so much. haiz. if can watch movie again with him then good lu.. well.. we dream when reality don't happen. and when reality does, it's not what you dream about. it's either way better, or far worse.

LOVE IS LIKE THE WIND.. YOU CANT SEE IT BUT YOU CAN FEEL IT.. APPRICIATE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW ONE DAY YOU MIGHT LOSE THEM YA..

wierd

it's something i never felt before. there's now this rush in me. i wanna just vomit out. like high blood. wanna pump it all out. i dunno what the heck is this. i just wanna write down this stupid good or bad feeling i'm feeling now.

my skin!

wooohooooooooo
lyz made my skin.. muahahaha.. it's so darn nice~~ me likey!! thanks to her my blog now have a skin.. and a nice one too!

HAVE YOU EVER WONDER? WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF YOU DID NOT DO WHAT YOU DID AND DID WHAT YOU DID NOT DO.

Luv Ya.

boring saturday

i went to art class late this morning. it was at 9. i kept thinking it starts at 9.30 cause i have to go for two replacements and it ends like 1.30. so.. 1.30...9.30..anyway i was late la. i reach there like 9.45. nearly 1 hour late.and then my teacher told me got sketching competition.(just draw stuff from magz on the spot for two hours) then i draw for 1 hour only since i was late the other hour.. i didn't finish also.
the next class i have to colour the banglow thing i drew. then 1.30 ad go home. had lunch.
lyz offered to do my skin~ muahahaha =D then.. steph was so happy and i'm not sure i can tell why...
had to sweep the floor........... ish.. then nothing much la. saturday's really boring for me.

newayz. tonight got match!!!! arsenal vs wigan. i dunno anything bout football.. i just like to watch it. and i'm gonna stay up to watch tonight!! 11. star sports. go watch!

I LOVE ARSENAL!!!

Arsenal beat wigan 2-0

yesterday i stayed up to watch the match like i said. wuuu!!! arsenal won 2-0 against wigan atheltic. muahaha.....the first half quite disappointed. not even one goal... anyway they scored like the 80 minute like that. first goal by gallas then few minutes later was rosicky the second goal.. wuuuu i luv them! haha
then i keep msg steph bout the match since no one watches with me. but apparently she didn't reply. she was already sleeping at 9. lol.

this morning i had to go to church. i was soooo lazy to get up. i slept at 1 yesterday night. morning.
then go shower get ready then me and my sis go pick my grand dad and aunt up. the traffic on federal so bad. and on a sunday. when we reach church mass nearly ended.
so.. my grandad belanja us zhu jiong fun. then we ate at their house then go ckk for another mass since we didn't really attend the one in pj.
i was so happy. i thought can see him tau.... cause he usually go 11.30 mass. but.. haiz.. none. just disappointment. and my stupid bra stripe keep coming out. lol. i have no idea how.

gin(my elder sis) wanted to go summit. buy her belt for taekwondo. so i follow lar. then she go buy dvd. if not because their dvd cheap,( 8 bucks for 1 and 40 for 6) i won't even go in that shop. the whole shop nearly everyone of them were smoking. gosh! want also go somewhere else la. donkey! urghhh.. they smoke i die. what the heck.
my sis bought balls of fury, hairspray,underdog,santa claus 3, pirates 3 and ratatouille.
gosh. i love ratatouille. just that now when i watch it, it'll never be as good as the first time i watch it. cause i watch it with someone really special and it was and still is the best and greatest day and moment. if only can watch again with the same person. haiz.. dot dot... getting all emo again.

DO NOT THINK THE OPPOSITE WAY.. BUT EVERYTHING IN LIFE HAPPENS FOR A REASON.. NO MAN DOES THINGS WITHOUT A REASONABLE EXPLAINATION. ( I DON'T REALLY BELIEF THAT.DO YOU?)

first time

holidays so bored i decided to start a blog. i first time. so don't laugh whatever i do. =)

today's the 23rd. i love 23rd's. if only it could happen again. and if only he remembered what day today WAS. gosh. i'm so.......... ....................................