i couldn't sleep. slept like 3.
woke up at 8 went for caroling practice in divine mercy.
going to church on christmas eve at cdm and christmas mass in ckk morning at 9.=)darn. haven't go for confession. lol.

owh. and the shit thing about today is i was msging stephanie. telling her bout what happen yesterday. and i accidentally send to him. the msg was something like" no i msg him first. then we online chat........." about what happen yesterday la. and i was like. sorry wrong msg.
later saw him online. i ask him to not read those msg. and he say he didn't. so thank god.although i don't really belief that he didn't. i ask him to just delete everything i send.
he say ok. so that's that. i just hope he never read those shit msgs. i'm soooooo effed up.
i just wanna die die die die. so he can just think i'm desperate!! yipee.
i'm siao today i dont even know why i wrote this. but i just felt like writing lo.