cause i painted my nails. and he smelled acetone. so wtf. he scold me. say i never do homework. and this time is the serious scold until bang table throw books kind of shit. i sound so pathetic talking about this while people are writing h0w they just celebrated their day with their friends. wth. anyway he say i like to pluck my face. wtf? pluck? what's wrong with his grammar weh. and he say i like to comb my hair and shit. erm. fyi. besides parting my hair. i don't comb my hair. unless i'm going out or something.
yea. my sis most prob will read this. but whatever.
so i'm like hyper sensitive shit. i kena marah bit sure cry. so i just cry la. wtf. then i tido. until like 10. slept at 11 so nearly 12 hours.
anyway. the man say i spoil his dinner and that i'm pissing him off that i want him to die. ok. fine. here's what i think.
i want him to die, so that he won't die because of ME pissing him off. he can just leave peacefully. i won't feel bad than. also he don't have to waste his time on me. and i'd rather he just didn't love me at all so he won't have to care about me and i'll be another burden less to him. right? make sense.
also he ask me what i want from him. haha. darn funny question. you think i can actually answer that? what i want? you want me to tell you i want that gorgeous long black jacket from sub that's 200 bucks. the nice white w580i from se which cost like 800++ also free manicure and pedicure. my own apartment and that you can just supply me cash. uh. and you think this is alot? i haven't even start my list. this is like just the few.
i look up to aj in this. i know it's not the same but wth. who cares.
ok. too chiong hei. newayz. today he make me do hw. all those books he throw everywhere. the one he ask me to burn that my sis bought and i'm suppose to do it during the hols.
oh. he also said. if i fail my first term i stop going to school wor. and today he said if i don't finish the books before school starts i don't have to go also. so instead of rotting at home. hmm. maybe faster ask my art teacher for job. she give like 15 bucks one hour. one day two hours. one week one day. quite good right? and if i don't go to school i can like help her out. no transport cost also. she stay few houses away only. exercise la. save money pun.
this my sis read want tell my dad tell lo. this one he sendiri cakap pun. but i trust she won't.
so today i just sit there. and in one fuckin day i finish 30 pages. it's the whole chapter of form 4 paper 1. tomorrow have to fuck on paper 2
so newayz. the plan i plan don't look like it's gonna work. i msg him yesterday night also. say he just reload. yea la. always also just reload.....
so i tak jadi pergi.
i miss school lar. can't belief i'm saying this. lol. getting so.. ughhh at home. i hope i can go to school leh. i love school... wtf. =)
i admire this girl leh. she's got the life i like. this sounds weird. but whatever. not gonna loh so.
ola~
HAPPY SWEET 16 TO HOEYEN!
NOTHING CAN REPLACE THOSE MEMORIES WE HAD.
NOTHING CAN TAKE OVER EVEN IF I'M SAD.
I'M WAY BETTER THAN WHAT YOU SEE.
JUST TOO BAD YOU CAN'T SEE THE REAL ME.
I WISH YOU COULD I WISH YOU CAN.
BUT IF YOU WANT ME IN YOUR LIFE
YOU'D FIND A WAY TO PUT ME THERE.
LOVE YOU SUCKA!
NOTHING CAN REPLACE THOSE MEMORIES WE HAD.
NOTHING CAN TAKE OVER EVEN IF I'M SAD.
I'M WAY BETTER THAN WHAT YOU SEE.
JUST TOO BAD YOU CAN'T SEE THE REAL ME.
I WISH YOU COULD I WISH YOU CAN.
BUT IF YOU WANT ME IN YOUR LIFE
YOU'D FIND A WAY TO PUT ME THERE.
LOVE YOU SUCKA!
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