1. Have you given your first kiss away?
lol. no

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
why blog buddies?elyse, stephanie and nuratiqah

Where is the place that you want to go the most?
heaven

4. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
that my dream will come true

5. Who would i marry?
god

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
erm. duh?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
that i would lose something?

8.If you win $1 million, what would you do?
leave home

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
most prob

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
don't know. yet.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
seafood people and know-it-all

12. Do you like black or white?
they're the same

13. If you have faults, would you rather the ppl around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point out. gives me a chance to bitch back about them more.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my life

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
don't think so?

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
if i change i wouldn't be me, and i like to stay me.

18. What's bothering you lately?
everything

19. What is life about?
living it?

20. Why do people often mistaken the forbidden fruit(Adam&Eve) as the apple?
cause it's what snow white ate??

i tag:
elyse
i ting
sonia
victor
gillian

man u arsenal tonight. 22.55. 812. doubt i'll watch.
i really can stop disliking my mom.
on wed, she said she'd come like 2 something to pick me and the girl up. car pool.
she came and 3.30, and both of us didn't have lunch and we didn't bring money. plus it was raining i was freakin hungry. but i don't know why i got so nice i ask the girl whether she ate. she say she haven't so i muka tembok go ask aunty for one burger and say that i'll pay her later. imagine how embarassing it is to ask for something or buy something without having money or not enough money. no face okay? and when my mom came i wanted to scream at her but i didn't. i go pay the aunty then we just went off. and mom says 'aiya. next time i don't want go out with them also. see here see there' don't bullshit. that's what you say EVERYTIME. and i was downloading sounds just now and my mom claims i'm playing games "you know this year you're form 5 or not? so free go and play games?" wtf? you want me get some nerd disease? like some effed up people that just keep studying 24/7? fuck you.

i didn't know my house got this leave.
i don't know what's it called.aunt made agar-agar. she's good at it.she's the bitch. and i really love shih tzu..
wah.......

i'm getting so crazy now. i don't know what to do..
kc says wait. just wait i don't even know for what..
lets all just wait and see what comes and what happens.. trying not to hate everything. why can't everything just go one way???
lets just pray...... and go confessions..

DON'T GO BITCHING BOUT ME TO GET MY ATTENTION.
JUST TELL ME THAT YOU WANT MY ATTENTION,
CAUSE NO ONE WANTS THEM EXCEPT YOU.
SO JUST TELL ME. AND I'LL PUT YOUR FIRST ON MY DESPO LIST.
YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THEN..











GAYS.
JERKS.

FREAKS,
HATES.
LOVES.
FUCKS.

I HATE MY FAMILY.






enough said.

first thing to say. i've been voted for one of the free-spirit thingy. that 'the brain' in the class, sports, suceed in life or some stuff like that.
i want to thank all the people that's reading my blog, because through my blog you listen to what i don't say out loud. lol. i've been voted free-spirit? the one that's singing out loud and out of tune? yea. but i'm living the other. i act differently when at home and in school. i go all crazy in school but at home i just don't laugh like i do in school except with the tv.
everything's falling apart. mom's like having period everyday, my sis is like having period everyday, and they're making me have period everyday. just cause they don't talk, it just got to have something to do with me. i have to tell my sis what my mom says and not tell my mom what my sis says.
i'm so.. confused. lost. god where are you? is this the punishment i get for not praying?


the oscar award for best actor/ actresses in the world, is teenagers.
you see nothing on their faces, just girls that are crying in school cause they broke up with their boyfriend or some of the student's results sucked. you see no worries and you think that they just live their life that they don't have to pay the rent or any bills.
but, they shed tears nobody see. tears of hatred, anger, fear
it sucks to see everything fall apart right infront of you. why can't they just do things that affect themselves, not me. not us. not anything. why can't we just be immune to everything they do?
why must some be so immature and not think? teenagers don't tell what happens in their family to their friends. it's not that they don't want to. they want to. so badly, to express everything out. but we just choose not to. if we do, we'll just say it in a pissed off way and pretend to get over with.
why did eve ate the fruit?

why must people feel this way? why must people quarrel? why must people fall in love?
why????? why??????????
why must everything tumble down when you need them to be upright? why must the feeling come to you when you don't want to hate? why must i lie just to do little things? why must i lie? why do humans lie? why must we know something that we wish not to know until everything is done and settle, why can't we know it when the time's right? why must we know it when we're at our lowest point??

women don't need men. women need love. women need love from men.
i need love. i have love. i love him so much. i miss him too... and i know he misses me and loves me. gosh i'm in love....





god. where are you? i miss you. i love god.
can't everything just disappear for a split second? where there's just nothing to worry about. just a happy feeling. just a moment of happiness and memorable. no sounds of SCOLDING!!( which i am hearing now) no arguements or sadness or pissed off-ness.
just a moment of beauty. quiet. silence. still. that's all. is that too much to ask for???
where's paradise?

damn. arsenal draw liverpool 1-1.

sorry for not updating so long. lazy sial.
last week. saturday.. i went pyramid with atiqah for another HHH.
and this HHH was considered successfull.
we saw altogether three hot dudes. first was cute. i like his hair. and him. haha
and the second one.. that... atiqah was going crazy over him. not me. at gsc counter. she kept bitching bout the girl that was with the guy and i just when on with her. haha.
the third one... fuiyoh. atiqah claims his eyes can stop traffic. we followed him( and his girlfriend)
in jusco. we keep running everywhere. it's like those stalking moments. when he was just on the other side. we followed him till.. he went paying and we ciao. owh. and atiqah says he looked at her. that's how she caught his eyes. something like that.
and i bought another shades!! elyse says: shades freak.
anyway i have even number of them now. lol. i have six. ooo. and we bumped into a flamboyant dude. it was weird. she kept saying gay out loud. ahha when he was just beside. with his boyfriend i think

i'm lovin it.

nice eh? the one i've been lookin for...fuiyoh. all my baby fats not in this pic.




ooo. my nose not bad. lol

oh. like the last post i said my mom bought loads of stuff( go read)
now, she bought another freezer, toaster, wallpaper, water hose.. and that's all i think plus the last time punya..

lookie. my feet. haha. kinda bored.

i'm just. me.

thanks to everyone, you're now just history. the person i used to like is gone. not here. you're just another piece of shit i used to be with. although not denying you was a good shit. a great shit.
anyway whatsoever. you're gone. you may bitch about me. cause. I DON'T CARE YOU BLOODY USELESS JERK!!!!

I'M AWESOME.
AND YOU KNOW IT.

can't believe arsenal lost. shit. i didn't watch though.

anyway i passed my bm and satisfied.
not feeling well too.

owh. my mom seriously spend shit alot this month. lets see...

-washing machine. (duh. i have to have one)
-paint. ( she bought paint which altogether cost 967.50)
-workmanship. (80 per person 2 guys to paint)
-new computer desk. (2 and cupboards)
-air-cond( fix the thing)
-wiring(wireman)
-lights(change the lights?)
-food( she seldom cook now.)
+ weekly groceries and stuff altogether, i don't know how much. but i prob be rich if she gave those money to me though.

nothing happen that i remember that i can tell or something like that. and congrats to myself i don't say fuck so much anymore nor point so much of my middle finger.
i'm getting so nice.

well i will try.

ola people.

PATIENCE.
GAY.


I LOVE ME!
BE NICE FRAN!

happy easter everyone! it's bunny and chocolate egg's day?? erm okay. anyway,me and my sis got some crazy appetite today..i ate the whole packet of bangers! we had breakfast at 11, i eat 3 slices of bread with butter and bovril and a cup of some oats thingy, my sis ate 2 slices with goober and 2 bananas. at 3, my mom and same sis go bungkus kfc. give the bec people that helped us clean that day. got two not at home, so bring home we makan. i was eating my first hotdog ad. then the kfc came, me and sis whack the drink the mashed potato and bread. chicken we both sama cannot eat. teeth pain. then i ate 1 piece of fish. (those already cut for like fish and chips kind of fish) continue eat 2 dicks. later my sis ate another bread and goober and banana. after that i had the last two bangers which all equals to one whole vacuum packed of sausage. then finish my mothers coke. dinner.. i ate fish and mashed potatos again. my sis ate another fish and rice i think. first time i ate so many bangers in a day. crap weh.

lepas tu... eh. nothing. all food only... die. i haven't even do moral project. haha. just finish the freakin add math correction that kean ask us to copy.
"those from 0-19 marks, copy two sets of answers. those 20-39 marks copy one set of answers. pass up on monday." blabalabla

still haven't do some jing cao shit. what is jing cao anyway? and add math homework plus 2 karangan which suppose to be 1 only but cause the first karangan i didn't do and one chinese essay which i know absolutely nothing about. and why do i have to do three folios for moral? i thought everyone did one only for last. why now all become two? i didn't listen to teacher? got ma. haiz. i hate doing folios. the only thing i like about it is that when i do it i might pass in my exam.

going off. ola~

match tonight!

tons of pics to upload.

some burned up thing. lol. burn marks.


yea. apparently i do clean.

sis bday cake. she's 20. and that makes me the only teen at home. =)

happy birthday old lady.

i made pudding. mango pudding. and i finished it all. muahaha.

oh yea. suddenly remember. friday me and my sis went to klang. orthodontia. we got lost cause this is our first time going to klang ALONE. my mom was at home watching the painters. so somehow we figure our way there and my sis unlucky cause she got this male dentist to do her teeth who is kinda rough and he said that it's his third day in klang. whatever. i got the regular one. she's nice. got some those connected rubberbands in front of my teeth. so ugly looking but i'm already ugly wearing braces so whatever laa.
on our way back after paying 6 tols.. wait. 5. we haven't passed the last one that time. after coming out of the 5th toll, one atos was parking at the side of the road and the road was quite narrow. one motorcyclist wanted to squeeze at the side of the fence and the atos and he either lost his balance, blind that he didn't see a freakin car infront of him or whatever, he just hit the atos and fell. that's all we saw, never go pat. shit weh. last last friday house caught fire. this friday witness accident. minor accident. next friday? i'll be one of the accident victims maybe? lol. touch wood touch wood. (why do they call it touch wood anyway)

so that's that, and mom made pasta. nice nice nice pasta.. covered in cheese, with cheese, under cheese, together with cheese, mixed with cheese, baked with cheese. okay fine. it's just CHEESE.


mmmmmmm nice!!!!

my mango pudding. (my sis also got do la)

lol. dumb sis. she got such big blue black she also dunno why. i know we do get, but not so big until we don't know also right? or not...

i'm watching you. so watch out.

man utd- liverpool (9.25pm) ESPN
chelsea-arsenal (11.55pm)ESPN
go watch! or screw yourself.

p.s: lol. i actually wrote a post without a single vulgar word. muahahahhaha. congrats to myself.
kiss my ass people. kiss my shoes too.

BLARDY FLAMBOYANT


PATIENCE.
AND
FAITH.

fuck the fucking friendster that i have to fucking see that one of his fucking hobbies and interests is her and he fucking wants to meet her and they also fucking hell have the fucking same and fucking exact shit shoutout. what the fuck is my problem?

fuck. fuck. fuck.fuck. fuck
















this is the end of my fucking session. i shall fuck no more. please get the fuck off of my head. cause i'm fucking better than you think i am. i thought you were like all macho but you're just another fucking chicken. stupid fucking chicken. you fuckable idiot. go fuck yourself cause no one else would.

when i say fuck, just pinch me. i should not say too much fuck. lol..
i'm not who you think i am. imma be better. better than you. no balls. stupid flamboyant.

fucking off.

painted my house before new year and now we have to paint it again cause the soot won't come off. ceilings especially. so. that day besides the bec came, my mom's mahjong friend also came. the silai. they all xiao jie, surpringsingly they'd come and help.

erm. exams. shit exams.
from the suckiest
: +maths-11 (first time didn't get single digit. lol)
sejarah-29
econs-39 ( ah hew better give me the one mark)
chinese-52 (quite happy with it)
maths-55
moral-56
acc-65
science-66
english-77

jsut haven't got bm.


fuck.
fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck.

when i was writing this, some flamboyant dude wrote a poem. it sounds. gay.
whatever.
shit.gay shit. gay shit.

lol.. sorry.sorry. there's some pics i wanna upload and erm. nothing much to say about this weekend. besides it's holy thursday and good friday.

owh. and that day when my cousin was driving after we drop the painters home, and we was passing by the padang and i kap whether got cute guys. my cousin turned in one junction where the whole field was in view and i saw the dude from my bec that has the whole package( and when i say whole package means: cute, good looking, head prefect, straight a's in ass pee m, good in football. that's all i know but isn't that enough? too bad he ain't those that wants a relationship. but girls still drool over him. just not me. not my type.)
so anyway i saw him and further up there was 3 dudes. one sitting and the other two standing. and fucking so happen the one that was sitting was the "sir". shit shit shit. i was so pissed off... and i don't know why.

PATIENCE.
STUPID ASS.