lol. tons of shit to upload. due to exams, i busy studying and lazy online. and lately i just don't really give a fuck.

my dad's back and my fridge and the other freezer is bombarded with chocolate and cheese. none for you though cause i can't make you fat or you'll blame me. so i'll just continue making myself fat. i was surprised when i realized NO ONE in this earth that i know have eaten CHEESE WITH APPLE.

exam duh. sucks. my aunt and uncle came down from singapore after they went to nz for hols for a month. and they came down with my not lost but found cousin. some i-have-no-idea-how-are-we-related cousin.

i've got a new cam and father's day is no father's day. and i went to the cremation place where they cremate people. my grand dad's adopted sister passed away last month on the twelve of may before the si chuan earthquake and on june eleven, my aunt's mother-in-law passed away too. so i went to the cremation place to see my aunt's name 'stick' to the wall one. why so many people suddenly gone.

nothing much to blah about even if there is i can't remember cause my brain is now malfunctioning. birthday wishes to people too. which i shall post next post and pictures on the next post too. life sucks and it's quite effed up. but that's life. and my phone died so no one can call or text me vice versa. it just didn't woke up don't ask me why.
and i cannot tahan people keep memandang rendah-ing me. wtf? you think who you are? if you're one piece of shit better than me, what makes you think the other part of my shit is not better than yours? i'm not racist. i don't discriminate. i'm just some bitch that just talks too much. at least i don't memandang rendah people. if you so high class, why do i still see you around? aren't you suppose to be like places where people like me don't go? so just go kill yourself.

i'll update soon when i can actually remember what i wrote. till then.

mono mood

laziness have taken over me. exams--- half exams, just finished and now i'm spoiled, fat, and dumb.
i've went atiqah's house like several times for studying maths accounts and add maths, or meet up to try on dresses. we both already found our prom dresses. =D

owh.. may's birthday,
may 6- lai wei jiat
7- kimberly
8- nadia
12- terence lazaroo
15-stephanie a.k.a. shit jie
16- malvin perera
23- godmother
24- choy chen ken
27- michelle michael

happy birthday to everyone.

teacher's day was soso. and i've got nothing else that i remember that i need to say.
besides condolences to ms. big butt candy (nanny if you reading this, candy suits you better although you're not sweet but i can see you love chocolate)

tons of movie i wanna watch. hellboy 2, wanted, what happens in vegas, the dark knight, i haven't even watch the lao shi jia lao da, forbidden kingdom, and shit loads more.

conclusion made: girls who have the same thing, bitch about each other.
unless they buy it together.
guys who have the same thing, talk to each other,
like they're friends forever.

2 conclusion made: guys who say wrong things alot, have to choose a girl with butter fingers.
p.s: chances of you getting slap is lesser. it usually just slides on your face.

premise 1: herself= shit
premise 2: she is full of herself
conclusion: she is full of shit.

nothing to babble bout my holidays. it's just the same old eat-sleep-shit-watch tv routine
and i'm reading how to teach filthy rich girls (you have no idea) by zean duke? dean zuke? something la.. it's okay only. i suggest it's better if you go read where rainbows end by cecelia ahern. not bad. well i like it.

dear edward, i don't think my this post very emo right? thank you for visiting my blog though. bye

saw this is can's house.
'we come to love not to find the perfect person, but the see an imperfect person, perfectly'
this is to all those that needs this? not me.
i'm so mono-mood now. why must football season be over? at least i can like watch right, instead of when i'm having exams.

oh. right. shit. my dad. he's coming back june 6 or 7. and i think i'm suppose to be all excited and happy since i've never seen him like 4 months plus. BUT, i feeling nothing. mono-mood like i said. nothing to feel at all. when my sis told me i was just like =.= oh. maybe i should pretend next time. like ' OMG dad's coming back tomorrow!!! i can't wait!! it's only 9 more hours two minutes and 36 seconds and daddy's gonna land!! shit! i still don't know what to wear!!!! should i wear slippers? but so rude right? and should i show daddy i pass my add maths??(not) i cannot wait!! tomorrow must wear nice nice ok. we give daddy big surprise! yay!' wtf? i'm sorry to say but i think i'll even forget if today was the 5th, that my dad is actually coming back tomorrow. if my mom doesnt remind me

enjoy your hols everyone, go spoil yourself and kiss your damn boyfriend and stop talking to us about how you and your boyfriend broke up because the first paper is econs and history. so shut up and let us study. monomono-mood. i need like a mood changer. toodles

happy birthday shit jie. =)

chicken. com?

went for a run like 3 rounds. or 2. yea 2. so we were walking the second round and i notice this car with a gunners sticker in the windshield. so i call my sister (since she was infront) "eh girl. arsenal!" so i went go arsenal go arsenal, shaking my butt. suddenly.. trrrr... one bicycle pass by. he didn't look like he was laughing. he was having the wtf face. shit. embarrassed myself. then went to the nearby playground with my sis. i wanted to sit the swing. so i sit saw scott. bec member. later walking back, saw a dude on bike. bryan. wearing his liverpool jersey. later walk walk. far far away, i saw this guy wearing red and white jersey. i told my sis 'eh girl, later if that guy is arsenal one he pass by i say arsenal rocks okay?' 'o' from a distance, i saw fly emirates. i told her 'eh. really arsenal. omg.. i don't dare say' ahhhhh.. i so chicken. lol. if only i said. then maybe i'll know him. if i know him then maybe i'll get to cheer for him and bryan and scott they all. and maybe i'm bump into my ex which i absolutely hope so. cause he can LOOK at me LOOKING at other guys. just not him. how satisfying. and i'll get to know other cute dudes too. =D just besides him. if they all turn out not to be cute.... i guess that won't happen. some people know the whole subang. soo..

cute guys. stay cute. blue eyes, stay blue. baby here i come!!

p.s. tomorrow's mothers day obviously everyone knows. or not. despite how much she nags or scold you, just go give her a hug and kiss and do all the house work tomorrow. just for one day it's not that hard right? and i'm gonna kill my elder sis if she plays her bloody indian songs again. it's like bobbing coconut tree song. i'm not racist. it's just that she plays it when she's not even on the com or NEAR the com. ughhh

hmm.. what's the weirdest food combination you ever had? milk and noodles? chilli sauce and chocolate? mine was meatball with strawberry jam. that was wayyy weird. but delicious too. =)
skip art class today. mom's friend gonna bring us have steamboat in usj 21? haha. spot me in shorts with my hair down if you happen to be there. if not? my silver nails will do. =D

loving you fucktards!

when my memory sucks.

some things that i forgotten to upload.

last last thursday, which is labours day, was my church's family day. erm. ckk.
so... our bec did lucky draw as always. we did quite well.

this was how our stall look like.

we got stuff like dvd player, electric something, hampers, rice, bottles, toaster? loads of stuff.
me and my sis went round first looking at other stalls, they have like erm.. dominos, j and co? drinks games etc etc

delicioussssssssssss... mmmmmmmm... j and co. they sold it like 1 for 3 bucks?

haha. stalls so full i can barely see it.my pretty cuz. if you watch deal or no deal?
you'll see her on the next episodes. deal?

after that, i lied.. again.. to my mom.. whoopsie. told her i was gonna do some khemah thing for sports day. but i went mid valley. with angel atiqah and soon yong. chen quan didn't come he was sleeping. qian chen didn't come.. cause of a girl? we went mcd's, there was this so-irrisistably-cute-white guy with blue eyes.. ohhhhh gosh... phew. he was. cute!!!!!!!!
ahhhh. soon yong so kesian cause me and atiqah kept spying on hot dudes. and there was another which i don't know what's the name, there was one TABLE of cute dudes. ahhh.. you guys should try go hunting. it rocks. =)

the next day, which was friday, me and my sis went for lunch together since we've got dental appointment in klang. so we went old town white coffee. gosh. the coffee's soooo darn good. it's one of the hazelnut thing. i can't remember the full name. was in ss15. then we walk to secret recipe to have cake. bumped into my sis's friends.

white macadamia.

the next day was sports day, woke up darn early just to sweat and sit there doing nothing. some girl painted my hand green with the word hijau. NEVER DO THAT! my hand hurts like shit and now it looks like this.

if you can see, there's a hijau word on my hand, and it still is there.
after i scrubbed off the paint. omg..... it's so..
lol. whatever la. it's not like we're gonna have anymore sports days.
this is the last!

oh.. and.. my FAVOURITE jeans... dah rosak.. near my ass. but i'm still wearing it though, cause it's not that obvious. and it's my favourite! ahhh...


look!!!!! disaster!! and it's like.. irreplacable....

after that, on sunday, my sis found out there's this mph thingy..
so we went and look see.. but in the end we ended up in 1u. cause we didn't know how to go there although my elder sis like showed us. there was shyt lot of people. so we went to 1u, then jalan..we went to forever 21, grabbed on few clothes, i saw nice hats.. weird hats also.. so i tried on this leather jacket which i don't think is real leather although it's like 200 ++

i tried on the dress that my sis wore,
i look like a little girl wearing on mom's clothes.
lol. was touching up my make up since i drew it in the car just now.

awww.. i know you know i look sweet too! thank you =)
lol.

later, we wanted to go eat waffle world.. then we saw big apple!!!! i like big apple more than j.co though. and i heard crispy creme is coming to malaysia.. ooo.. yea yea...
we ate alien vs.predator, then went to waffle world. i called this thing which i have no idea what the heck it is, and it turned out to just be a bangers.

bangers anyone?

when you go to waffle world, can you not eat waffle? we ordered a blueberry one. it's nice. =) then we just head home. that's all.

on thursday, i stayed back in school. watch elyse, i ting, gillian and esther sing. me and huiyi keep screaming and finishing off people's water. *sorry* but it was fun. fun for everyone until the next day, i went to school with a hyper sexy voice. i'm bringing sexy back!!one lm guy thinks my voice was like that originally. lol? friend says i should keep it like that for a change? if only they had like.. temporary voice changing machine. i'll wait till they come up with something like that.

i stayed back on friday, went to mid valley after school with steph and claudine. follow school to this one academy exhibition. we went round.. saw my ex-lm-senior fai chun, then we went to the drawing section. the girls keep asking us to draw. when she went away, we start drawing. steph as usual, draw shit, two plane. i drew tomato and football. claud drew one of the one academy girl who was sleeping. then we wrote our names, and loads of crap and chao. later we came back, we saw some people seeing our drawing. although it was weird but at least they didn't straight away turn. they sort of looked at it. haha. damn fun. we wanted to go wander ourselves but teacher don't let. she say we have to go back with her. wth? so we were starving. we went to sushi king, ate and came back. she didn't even know we were gone. stupid. haha. so we just went back school. after the two went home, i teman the just-donated-blood-skinny-tall jing mun go help lm do some stuff. lepas tu, i balik also. =D

steph mirror-viewing in class.
playing with glue..
the accounts-freak that got 100 marks for accounts.
claudine.




stephanie lee!!!! your aeroplane i promised.

sorry. again. i'm so lazy to online. but since i have the time.

here i go. outing with atiqah after anugerah cemerlang.

it's okay. i didn't belief that was me too.

friend did this for me on my request.
i love it and that's gonna be it.


this is what kesian me eat..

after iu day. atiqah and me went to mv to hhh again. but instead, we got ourselves bloated.
we were suppose to have lunch and suddenly i was craving for spaghetti. so..... i didn't give up i keep finding. apparently i can't find any italian in mv. while she was going psycho hungry she just ask me to eat anything. so i continue finding i went to the gardens...
ALLELUIA!! italianese.
we had carbonara. just one plate. and we couldn't finish. there's like another portion for a third person. a full portion. lepas that, we went jalan to digest the food. she saw this hot model that she wanted to take picture WITH but... there's another hot girl walking beside him which is one of the models too. upset sial.. we just went. don't remember much bout hunting though. then we went to zen. she intro me eat this chocolate mud cake. mmmm.. nice... haha. but kinda alot though. we swore.. no more food for the day.. we end up going to big apple i bought two doughnuts and she bought a dozen? haha. ok.. seriously no more food.

at night, i had dinner with my cousin sis. seafood restaurant...crab.
fried sotong.
tofu.

fish.
you know what's that????







yes!! itu kawan dia! ostrich meat.
i so scared i just ate one small piece. it's quite nice though..

my piece. go!

K.O. francisca wins! grins.

so that was ALL the food i ate. in one day. darn alot. haha. but after that i vomitted though.. so.. it's not bulimia la.

just look at the shades.
flower in my house.

bought a bag in converse since mine dah rosak. so.. nothing much. just glad that arsenal beat derby 6-2 and mu got trashed.. oopss..

i'm real happy now. i think. well i guess i am. wait. not really. my elder sis is making MY life so effed up. she does things like, it doesn't matter to her but it does to us. i late it's my pasal right? i'm not six. i don't 'put the blame on me'. and my mom. please. both of you. shut the fuck up or get out of my life. I'M NOT FUCKING SIX!!

THE LIFE I LOVE.

1. Have you given your first kiss away?
lol. no

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
why blog buddies?elyse, stephanie and nuratiqah

Where is the place that you want to go the most?
heaven

4. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
that my dream will come true

5. Who would i marry?
god

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
erm. duh?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
that i would lose something?

8.If you win $1 million, what would you do?
leave home

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
most prob

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
don't know. yet.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
seafood people and know-it-all

12. Do you like black or white?
they're the same

13. If you have faults, would you rather the ppl around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point out. gives me a chance to bitch back about them more.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my life

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
don't think so?

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
if i change i wouldn't be me, and i like to stay me.

18. What's bothering you lately?
everything

19. What is life about?
living it?

20. Why do people often mistaken the forbidden fruit(Adam&Eve) as the apple?
cause it's what snow white ate??

i tag:
elyse
i ting
sonia
victor
gillian

man u arsenal tonight. 22.55. 812. doubt i'll watch.
i really can stop disliking my mom.
on wed, she said she'd come like 2 something to pick me and the girl up. car pool.
she came and 3.30, and both of us didn't have lunch and we didn't bring money. plus it was raining i was freakin hungry. but i don't know why i got so nice i ask the girl whether she ate. she say she haven't so i muka tembok go ask aunty for one burger and say that i'll pay her later. imagine how embarassing it is to ask for something or buy something without having money or not enough money. no face okay? and when my mom came i wanted to scream at her but i didn't. i go pay the aunty then we just went off. and mom says 'aiya. next time i don't want go out with them also. see here see there' don't bullshit. that's what you say EVERYTIME. and i was downloading sounds just now and my mom claims i'm playing games "you know this year you're form 5 or not? so free go and play games?" wtf? you want me get some nerd disease? like some effed up people that just keep studying 24/7? fuck you.

i didn't know my house got this leave.
i don't know what's it called.aunt made agar-agar. she's good at it.she's the bitch. and i really love shih tzu..
wah.......

i'm getting so crazy now. i don't know what to do..
kc says wait. just wait i don't even know for what..
lets all just wait and see what comes and what happens.. trying not to hate everything. why can't everything just go one way???
lets just pray...... and go confessions..

DON'T GO BITCHING BOUT ME TO GET MY ATTENTION.
JUST TELL ME THAT YOU WANT MY ATTENTION,
CAUSE NO ONE WANTS THEM EXCEPT YOU.
SO JUST TELL ME. AND I'LL PUT YOUR FIRST ON MY DESPO LIST.
YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THEN..











GAYS.
JERKS.

FREAKS,
HATES.
LOVES.
FUCKS.

I HATE MY FAMILY.






enough said.

first thing to say. i've been voted for one of the free-spirit thingy. that 'the brain' in the class, sports, suceed in life or some stuff like that.
i want to thank all the people that's reading my blog, because through my blog you listen to what i don't say out loud. lol. i've been voted free-spirit? the one that's singing out loud and out of tune? yea. but i'm living the other. i act differently when at home and in school. i go all crazy in school but at home i just don't laugh like i do in school except with the tv.
everything's falling apart. mom's like having period everyday, my sis is like having period everyday, and they're making me have period everyday. just cause they don't talk, it just got to have something to do with me. i have to tell my sis what my mom says and not tell my mom what my sis says.
i'm so.. confused. lost. god where are you? is this the punishment i get for not praying?


the oscar award for best actor/ actresses in the world, is teenagers.
you see nothing on their faces, just girls that are crying in school cause they broke up with their boyfriend or some of the student's results sucked. you see no worries and you think that they just live their life that they don't have to pay the rent or any bills.
but, they shed tears nobody see. tears of hatred, anger, fear
it sucks to see everything fall apart right infront of you. why can't they just do things that affect themselves, not me. not us. not anything. why can't we just be immune to everything they do?
why must some be so immature and not think? teenagers don't tell what happens in their family to their friends. it's not that they don't want to. they want to. so badly, to express everything out. but we just choose not to. if we do, we'll just say it in a pissed off way and pretend to get over with.
why did eve ate the fruit?

why must people feel this way? why must people quarrel? why must people fall in love?
why????? why??????????
why must everything tumble down when you need them to be upright? why must the feeling come to you when you don't want to hate? why must i lie just to do little things? why must i lie? why do humans lie? why must we know something that we wish not to know until everything is done and settle, why can't we know it when the time's right? why must we know it when we're at our lowest point??

women don't need men. women need love. women need love from men.
i need love. i have love. i love him so much. i miss him too... and i know he misses me and loves me. gosh i'm in love....





god. where are you? i miss you. i love god.
can't everything just disappear for a split second? where there's just nothing to worry about. just a happy feeling. just a moment of happiness and memorable. no sounds of SCOLDING!!( which i am hearing now) no arguements or sadness or pissed off-ness.
just a moment of beauty. quiet. silence. still. that's all. is that too much to ask for???
where's paradise?

damn. arsenal draw liverpool 1-1.

sorry for not updating so long. lazy sial.
last week. saturday.. i went pyramid with atiqah for another HHH.
and this HHH was considered successfull.
we saw altogether three hot dudes. first was cute. i like his hair. and him. haha
and the second one.. that... atiqah was going crazy over him. not me. at gsc counter. she kept bitching bout the girl that was with the guy and i just when on with her. haha.
the third one... fuiyoh. atiqah claims his eyes can stop traffic. we followed him( and his girlfriend)
in jusco. we keep running everywhere. it's like those stalking moments. when he was just on the other side. we followed him till.. he went paying and we ciao. owh. and atiqah says he looked at her. that's how she caught his eyes. something like that.
and i bought another shades!! elyse says: shades freak.
anyway i have even number of them now. lol. i have six. ooo. and we bumped into a flamboyant dude. it was weird. she kept saying gay out loud. ahha when he was just beside. with his boyfriend i think

i'm lovin it.

nice eh? the one i've been lookin for...fuiyoh. all my baby fats not in this pic.




ooo. my nose not bad. lol

oh. like the last post i said my mom bought loads of stuff( go read)
now, she bought another freezer, toaster, wallpaper, water hose.. and that's all i think plus the last time punya..

lookie. my feet. haha. kinda bored.

i'm just. me.

thanks to everyone, you're now just history. the person i used to like is gone. not here. you're just another piece of shit i used to be with. although not denying you was a good shit. a great shit.
anyway whatsoever. you're gone. you may bitch about me. cause. I DON'T CARE YOU BLOODY USELESS JERK!!!!

I'M AWESOME.
AND YOU KNOW IT.